i'd like to fly away..

One have many plans of one's life, so do i.. as per what am i feeling right now, i wanna run away from the rat race, i'd like to start something, what is it is still not that clear.. reading on my past notes and writings somehow revealed someone who had that much of a motivation, but not now.. where does it all goes? does this have to do with 9-5?

i knew i fell sick. i knew that i am sick. and i knew that i will still be sick. even my chinese friend gave me an advice on that there is "no one can change myself but me", somehow it is what it is stated in the Quran.. he must have been reading it somewhere in that many translations and such..

i want to run away, would like to dive in the deepest ocean but i still need a line.. bread winner, won't even forget that.. well, there are still missions unaccomplished, plans yet executed and such.. nothing more that i wanna do much than spending time with the loved ones.. as there are no one else that appreciates you more than them (and Allah the All-mighty for sure)..

ok, i'll have to start motivating myself, picking up the missing part and executing missions.. nothing's impossible.. i just want to be me, for the rest of my life..